I remember when you use to cry to 1+1 I remember when you only want us.. I remember when you wiped my tears away..I remember when you had no one and I was there… I remember the joy of us being together..

Missing the past

Sometimes I wonder do you miss me.. Sometimes I wonder do you think about me.. Sometimes I wonder if you think you made a mistake.. Sometimes I wonder do you miss me next to you.. Because I do.. You cause me so much pain yet I miss your side smile.. I’m starting to forget your smell, in starting to forget you laugh.. But there’s times I can close my eyes and feel you, hear you, see you, smell you, and remember when our eyes light up in each other presence…

stopping my heart

when you fall in love with someone that doesn’t want your love… when you feel like 2nd choice.. when you feel like your a burden.. when you feel ugly.. not wanted.. broken.. when all you want is him but that doesn’t take away the temptation of him wanting to free from you.. i hear these love songs and i know i don’t have it.. i don’t have that love that will make you believe everything.. i look at myself now and i cant remember when i lost believing love can conquer all.. i use to believe if i gave my all then i will get the same back… but now I’m so dark and hurt.. i feel i just let my heart get hurt because I’m so in the past or hoping things will get better but its not.. all i have is tears and heartache.. when i look at you my heart just want to go next to you and live in the warmth of your heart then reality it hits me right after and say your not safe to do that, your heart isn’t wanted…

I tired of the life I have./ why can’t I just have time to not deal with this bullshit!! I just want to run away and start another life in another country just get away from the bullshit!!